This morning, i went to see my granddad's cemetery. It's the green one among others. Placed in such a dense 'population' of cemetery, I managed to get there by carefully passing through each cemetery. When I got there, it’s already been cleaned up and poured with flowers. They smelled nice. Apparently, a member of the family came not very long before me. So I cleaned up the tiny dust and made a pray.
There are things to remember about this granddad. He was an ex-soldier who wasn’t purposed for battle. As my mother told me, he did the errands for his commander. He drove his commander to the office, drove his commander’s wife to the grocery store, took their kids to school, and many other errands he did. When he got into pension period, he continued his life by doing small-scale civil works; repairing roof, fixing electricity networks, even helping in building my parents’ house. He could fix TVs, radios, motorcycle, and even he drove a local transportation car (angkot). As if there is nothing else he couldn’t do.
He had 6 children. He lived poorly but happily. He struggled to give his kids the best education he can. He wanted to do so to make his kids have a better than his. Well, he managed to get his kids to senior high level; one of them got a diploma. Now, his kids are now grown up and having their own family.
As much as I know, he had no idea in giving up. In the age of 60s, he can do things as if he was only 40 or 50. I’m not saying that he was a workaholic, but all he did, he did it sincerely to help people and for his kids.
I had quite a few memories about him. When I went to school from elementary to senior high, sometimes he pick me up to school if my dad was assigned to another city. Sometimes, he came to our house just to have a chat and brought me and my brother nasi goreng. He gave us advices in unique and cheerful ways. He gave me a long one just before getting into college. As I recalled, he never got mad at us, but he did have mad to my other cousins. He loved us in many ways.
One that I remember the most is when he was ill deeply, it was in 2004. During lebaran, he stayed in my house for awhile, just to get better rest than his house. I didn’t think that that was my last time seeing him. Just when I was ready to depart for college after Lebaran vacation, he suddenly cried like a little child. I tried to cheer him up by saying that I believe I can see him next year. I hug him, confident that he would be okay. I left him to get to the airport. In the next few days, I got news that he passed away. I was speechless. There was a regret that I had in my heart. I regret that I didn’t spend time to show my love and respect to him. I regret that I didn’t give him enough time to say goodbye. I can picture his cry back then until now.
Now, I felt those regret as useless thing to feel. I may regret it until now but not as big as I had a few years ago. That is why I want to move on and showing love to parents and grandparents better than before. I want to be prepared to lose someone dear to heart when their time comes.
These writing come in mind every time I go there. I think that what ziarah is for.
07 Agustus 2010
24 Juli 2010
Pengalaman Seru Mondar Mandir di kantor
Assalamualaikum.
dear readers, how are you?
We're having some rainy days lately. N I'm typing it under this chill weather, waiting it to stop so I can get swimming...huhuhuhuhu...
Well, yesterday, I had quite a confusing day. There were not so many customers, but we were not in full squad. I felt chaotic. I had no idea that I will have such kind of day. I moved to one place and another in haste. I had too many things in my hand while handling customers' requests or complain. I wasn't focus and calm. I always feel uneasy looking at the customers' eye wandering their impatient look. N yes, I made too many mistakes just by being too hasty and infocus.
And in the end of the day, I made a deep mistake. When a mystery shopper got me, questioning details about sms banking that I haven't really understand about, I gambled on the answers and I lost. They got me. I felt guilty afterward and mumbling about it throughout my explaination to this mystery shopper...very lucky me!! This was added by forgetting my promise to close an account of a soldier who was very dissapointed for waiting too long for it. I felt another guilt....
Lucky me, I can take that as an experience that told me how it felt like to have such situation..Now, I want to make myself clear that I need to be able to focus and calm so I can pick my plan carefully. I also need to rise up the challenge of my surroundings.
I have learnt from yesterday...
What about you?
A
dear readers, how are you?
We're having some rainy days lately. N I'm typing it under this chill weather, waiting it to stop so I can get swimming...huhuhuhuhu...
Well, yesterday, I had quite a confusing day. There were not so many customers, but we were not in full squad. I felt chaotic. I had no idea that I will have such kind of day. I moved to one place and another in haste. I had too many things in my hand while handling customers' requests or complain. I wasn't focus and calm. I always feel uneasy looking at the customers' eye wandering their impatient look. N yes, I made too many mistakes just by being too hasty and infocus.
And in the end of the day, I made a deep mistake. When a mystery shopper got me, questioning details about sms banking that I haven't really understand about, I gambled on the answers and I lost. They got me. I felt guilty afterward and mumbling about it throughout my explaination to this mystery shopper...very lucky me!! This was added by forgetting my promise to close an account of a soldier who was very dissapointed for waiting too long for it. I felt another guilt....
Lucky me, I can take that as an experience that told me how it felt like to have such situation..Now, I want to make myself clear that I need to be able to focus and calm so I can pick my plan carefully. I also need to rise up the challenge of my surroundings.
I have learnt from yesterday...
What about you?
A
20 Mei 2010
It is easier to be a FOLLOWER than one be FOLLOWED
Dear readers, it has been a while since my last post..
I missed a lot of things. I was lost in myself. Let me whine a little bit, will you?
In the last few days, I was intrigued by the feeling of unable to look at the eyes of some successful persons. There were some kind of force that make me feel they have that inner power to be a successful person. If i may say their names, like Surya Paloh, and Elang (young entrepreneur, winner of Mandiri Young Entrepreneur). To be honest, i was jealous n i hate to look them in the eyes. But, it was my self-ego afterall.
They have put effort, drive that i haven't done up until now. They did what i did not. They bear what I can't.
Now, in the last few days, I have realised a few thing. I found it easier to be a follower than one be followed. I found it easier to be in our own circle that excluded us from what we fear of. Fear of what we may face. Fear of what we may fail in the future. Fear of loses.
We may need to put more drive in ourselves. Sometimes, we may feel tired of doing the unworthy activities or effort easier than those we may feel worthy. Again, emotions play their role more than we may need to achieve in this life. We need emotion to drive us forward, but we may not need it in facing fears.
Are we driven enough to be a great, successful person?
I missed a lot of things. I was lost in myself. Let me whine a little bit, will you?
In the last few days, I was intrigued by the feeling of unable to look at the eyes of some successful persons. There were some kind of force that make me feel they have that inner power to be a successful person. If i may say their names, like Surya Paloh, and Elang (young entrepreneur, winner of Mandiri Young Entrepreneur). To be honest, i was jealous n i hate to look them in the eyes. But, it was my self-ego afterall.
They have put effort, drive that i haven't done up until now. They did what i did not. They bear what I can't.
Now, in the last few days, I have realised a few thing. I found it easier to be a follower than one be followed. I found it easier to be in our own circle that excluded us from what we fear of. Fear of what we may face. Fear of what we may fail in the future. Fear of loses.
We may need to put more drive in ourselves. Sometimes, we may feel tired of doing the unworthy activities or effort easier than those we may feel worthy. Again, emotions play their role more than we may need to achieve in this life. We need emotion to drive us forward, but we may not need it in facing fears.
Are we driven enough to be a great, successful person?
22 Desember 2009
mau pake AC?
SAlah satu tujuan dari kemajuan teknologi adalah untuk membuat hidup manusia lebih nyaman. Manusia selalu menginginkan hal ynag lebih baik dalam hidupnya, oleh karena itu, manusia selalu berinovasi, selalu membuat perubahan menuju hal yang lebih baik, lebih nyaman. SAlah satu teknologi yang dibuat untuk memberikan kenyamanan bagi manusia adalah AC atau Air Conditioner. Sesuai dengan namanya, AC digunakan untuk mengatur temperatur dalam ruangan sehingga manusia dapat merasa lebih nyaman didalamnya. Teknologi yang baik dan pas bagi keinginan manusia, terutama di Indonesia yang suhu lingkungannya sekitar 30 derajat celcius, bahkan dapat mencapai 33 derajat celcius di siang hari pada musim kemarau.
Manusia(terutama di Indonesia), menemukan kenyamanan dalam penggunaan AC. Teknologi ini semakin berkembang seiring waktu. Bahkan mulai bergeser menjadi gaya hidup dan kebutuhan yang mendekati kebutuhan sekunder. Harga perangkat AC yang makin rendah dan begitu pula dengan konsumsi listriknya yang makin efisien membuat makin banyak orang menggunakannya.
Namun, ada sisi buruk yang muncul darinya.
Dari sudut gaya hidup, penggunaan AC di rumah pribadi memberikan kepuasan dan gengsi tersendiri bagi pemilik rumah. Rumah dengan AC menjadi impian mereka yang belum pernah mempunyai AC di rumah tinggal mereka. Yang belum pernah merasakan keadaan rumah ber-AC dibilang 'ndeso', apalagi yang jatuh sakit karena terlalu lama terpapar hawa dingin AC, pasti dibilang 'katrok'. Mereka yang terus-menerus menggunakan AC di hidupnya(rumah, kantor, sekolah, tempat perbelanjaan, mobil, dll) terkadang mengalami kesulitan untuk berada di tempat yang tidak ber-AC. Mereka cepat merasa gerah dan berkeringat banyak yang membuat mereka jauh dari keadaan nyaman.
DAri sudut fungsi, AC sudah bergeser dari alat pembuat nyaman hidup dengan memberikan suhu ruangan yang sejuk menjadi alat pendingin ruangan. Kenapa saya sebut menjadi alat pendingin ruangan, karena ada masyarakat yang merasa kalo belum dingin, bahkan sampai menggigil, lebih baik tidak usah memakai AC. Ada pula yang bilang, bahwa AC harus dioperasikan pada suhu tertentu, kalau tidak akan membuat AC cepat rusak. Contoh, jika di kamar berukuran 3mx4m dipasang AC, namun AC hanya boleh dioperasikan pada 24 derajat celsius, ternyata si anak merasa kedinginan sehingga tidak bisa banyak beraktifitas tanpa mengenakan jaket atau selimut. Belum ada alasan yang jelas yang saya dapatkan mengenai hal ini. Begitu pula ketika suatu ruang kelas dipasang AC central untuk seluruh gedung, ternyata suhu ruangannya diatur pada suhu tertentu sehingga para siswa akhirnya belajar, walau tidak dapat berkonsentrasi penuh karena disibukkan dengan aktifitas menghangatkan badan, bergoyang kesana kemari, menempelkan tangan di ketiak atau ditaruh di bawah pantat, menggosok-gosokkan tangan,dll. Ditambah pula dengan iklan/promosi AC yang menggambarkan bahwa dengan memakai AC, maka kita dapat merasakan sejuk layaknya berada di cuaca salju, dengan berpakaian ala orang Eskimo, bahkan ada pula yang ditambah dengan meminum segelas minuman hangat. Yang terbersit dalam pikiran saya, "Nah lho, diluar panas, tapi jadinya malah minum air hangat karena pakai AC sampai kedinginan. Terus, maunya manusia ini ngerasa hangat, sejuk, panas apa dingin sih??".
Bingung saya sampai sekarang.
Kita pun tahu, bahwa prinsip kerja AC secara mudah adalah memindahkan panas dari dalam ruangan menuju lingkungan. Karena panas di dalam ruangan berkurang, maka suhu ruangan pun menjadi lebih rendah. Jadi, dapat kita simpulkan secara sederhana, bahwa dengan kita membuang panas ke lingkungan(luar ruangan) maka kita membuat suhu ruangan lebih panas. Hal ini dikarenakan makin banyaknya pengguna AC. Coba saja kita berdiri mendekati buangan panas pendingin udara sebuah pusat perbelanjaan modern, bagaimana panas yang dibuang? seberapa panas hasil buangan panas tersebut agar orang-orang dapat berbelanja dengan nyaman? Demikian pula jika kita menggabungkan buangan panas dari AC yang dipakai seluruh warga suatu kompleks perumahan, pasti juga demikian panas, buangan panas dari AC tersebut. Ditambah pula panas yang dihasilkan dari pembangkit listrik yang harus memenuhi kebutuhan listrik penduduk yang makin meningkat. Jadi, bisa dibilang, kita menambahkan panas ke lingkungan karena keinginan kita untuk merasakan hawa sejuk(atau malah hawa dingin??). Mungkin ada penulis lain yang bisa memberikan gambaran mengenai signifikan atau tidaknya buangan panas ini pada kenaikan suhu lingkungan.
Ada beberapa ide yang bisa saya bagi untuk pengguna AC.
> Atur suhu AC pada suhu sedikit dibawah suhu lingkungan, agar buangan panas tidak terlampau banyak.
> Manfaatkan panas buangan AC agar tidak menjadi panas yang sia-sia(contoh: panas AC digunakan untuk mengeringkan sepatu, atau panas yang dikeluarkan AC disalurkan untuk mengeringkan pakaian, dll).
> Jangan sering-sering menggunakan AC jikalau tidak perlu. Maksudnya disini adalah agar kita tidak "kecanduan" memakai AC
Kalau ada ide lain, penulis dengan senang hati menampung dan mendukung. Mari kita dukung perubahan menuju hidup yang lebih baik dengan teknologi yang lebih baik.
Bagaimana dengan anda?
Manusia(terutama di Indonesia), menemukan kenyamanan dalam penggunaan AC. Teknologi ini semakin berkembang seiring waktu. Bahkan mulai bergeser menjadi gaya hidup dan kebutuhan yang mendekati kebutuhan sekunder. Harga perangkat AC yang makin rendah dan begitu pula dengan konsumsi listriknya yang makin efisien membuat makin banyak orang menggunakannya.
Namun, ada sisi buruk yang muncul darinya.
Dari sudut gaya hidup, penggunaan AC di rumah pribadi memberikan kepuasan dan gengsi tersendiri bagi pemilik rumah. Rumah dengan AC menjadi impian mereka yang belum pernah mempunyai AC di rumah tinggal mereka. Yang belum pernah merasakan keadaan rumah ber-AC dibilang 'ndeso', apalagi yang jatuh sakit karena terlalu lama terpapar hawa dingin AC, pasti dibilang 'katrok'. Mereka yang terus-menerus menggunakan AC di hidupnya(rumah, kantor, sekolah, tempat perbelanjaan, mobil, dll) terkadang mengalami kesulitan untuk berada di tempat yang tidak ber-AC. Mereka cepat merasa gerah dan berkeringat banyak yang membuat mereka jauh dari keadaan nyaman.
DAri sudut fungsi, AC sudah bergeser dari alat pembuat nyaman hidup dengan memberikan suhu ruangan yang sejuk menjadi alat pendingin ruangan. Kenapa saya sebut menjadi alat pendingin ruangan, karena ada masyarakat yang merasa kalo belum dingin, bahkan sampai menggigil, lebih baik tidak usah memakai AC. Ada pula yang bilang, bahwa AC harus dioperasikan pada suhu tertentu, kalau tidak akan membuat AC cepat rusak. Contoh, jika di kamar berukuran 3mx4m dipasang AC, namun AC hanya boleh dioperasikan pada 24 derajat celsius, ternyata si anak merasa kedinginan sehingga tidak bisa banyak beraktifitas tanpa mengenakan jaket atau selimut. Belum ada alasan yang jelas yang saya dapatkan mengenai hal ini. Begitu pula ketika suatu ruang kelas dipasang AC central untuk seluruh gedung, ternyata suhu ruangannya diatur pada suhu tertentu sehingga para siswa akhirnya belajar, walau tidak dapat berkonsentrasi penuh karena disibukkan dengan aktifitas menghangatkan badan, bergoyang kesana kemari, menempelkan tangan di ketiak atau ditaruh di bawah pantat, menggosok-gosokkan tangan,dll. Ditambah pula dengan iklan/promosi AC yang menggambarkan bahwa dengan memakai AC, maka kita dapat merasakan sejuk layaknya berada di cuaca salju, dengan berpakaian ala orang Eskimo, bahkan ada pula yang ditambah dengan meminum segelas minuman hangat. Yang terbersit dalam pikiran saya, "Nah lho, diluar panas, tapi jadinya malah minum air hangat karena pakai AC sampai kedinginan. Terus, maunya manusia ini ngerasa hangat, sejuk, panas apa dingin sih??".
Bingung saya sampai sekarang.
Kita pun tahu, bahwa prinsip kerja AC secara mudah adalah memindahkan panas dari dalam ruangan menuju lingkungan. Karena panas di dalam ruangan berkurang, maka suhu ruangan pun menjadi lebih rendah. Jadi, dapat kita simpulkan secara sederhana, bahwa dengan kita membuang panas ke lingkungan(luar ruangan) maka kita membuat suhu ruangan lebih panas. Hal ini dikarenakan makin banyaknya pengguna AC. Coba saja kita berdiri mendekati buangan panas pendingin udara sebuah pusat perbelanjaan modern, bagaimana panas yang dibuang? seberapa panas hasil buangan panas tersebut agar orang-orang dapat berbelanja dengan nyaman? Demikian pula jika kita menggabungkan buangan panas dari AC yang dipakai seluruh warga suatu kompleks perumahan, pasti juga demikian panas, buangan panas dari AC tersebut. Ditambah pula panas yang dihasilkan dari pembangkit listrik yang harus memenuhi kebutuhan listrik penduduk yang makin meningkat. Jadi, bisa dibilang, kita menambahkan panas ke lingkungan karena keinginan kita untuk merasakan hawa sejuk(atau malah hawa dingin??). Mungkin ada penulis lain yang bisa memberikan gambaran mengenai signifikan atau tidaknya buangan panas ini pada kenaikan suhu lingkungan.
Ada beberapa ide yang bisa saya bagi untuk pengguna AC.
> Atur suhu AC pada suhu sedikit dibawah suhu lingkungan, agar buangan panas tidak terlampau banyak.
> Manfaatkan panas buangan AC agar tidak menjadi panas yang sia-sia(contoh: panas AC digunakan untuk mengeringkan sepatu, atau panas yang dikeluarkan AC disalurkan untuk mengeringkan pakaian, dll).
> Jangan sering-sering menggunakan AC jikalau tidak perlu. Maksudnya disini adalah agar kita tidak "kecanduan" memakai AC
Kalau ada ide lain, penulis dengan senang hati menampung dan mendukung. Mari kita dukung perubahan menuju hidup yang lebih baik dengan teknologi yang lebih baik.
Bagaimana dengan anda?
TObacco in Indonesia
After seeing 101 East--a programme of Al Jazeera-- which gives a introductory perspective of asian countries, this time, about tobacco in Indonesia, I felt....much like....embarrased. I do feel so because what they showed me --also their international viewers--in the programme, that Indonesians are so addicted to tobacco.
There was one side that they picture a young mother being sick--lung cancer-- for their men in the family smoke. They portrayed the ironi that she got the cancer although she breathed second-hand-smoke(smoke that smokers release). She doesnt smoke, but eventually she died to it. She cant hold her newborn child anymore. And yet their family cant let their hand off their cigarettes, only this time, less than their usual consumption. Even some of the relatives didnt believe that tobacco can cause death, at least sickness. They even tell that being cough a lot is not sick, since for them being sick means you can only rest in your bed doing hardly anything. They were saying it in plain face.
IN the other hand, in the tobacco farmers side, a man has been smoking for 30 years, and he is smoking less since he felt harder to breathe. His wife even says that smoking is OK and it wont give any sickness to them. She even let her teenage child smoke since she things it is not masculine for men who doesnt smoke. She said it in the same plain face of farmers in villages.
They also portrayed about when MUI decided to lay fatwa 'haram' to cigarrettes(which means they ban moslems to smoke), farmers rally to refuse the fatwa. The head rally was a moslem as well, pointing out that they will give their life to stand against that fatwa. They dont care who they are facing, since what matters the most for them is that people can keep smoking so the tobacco farmers dont have to lose their job, or even switch their plantation. Some even caught by camera bringing a figure which implies "Cigarettes are not poison".. Even the reporter said, "For them, welfare is more important than theology".
They even portrayed that the brave ex health minister, Siti Fadilah Supari, cannot say anything after being asked about cigarette issue by saying that she is not ready for such question and leaving the question to her staff in excuse to an occasion she was too late to attend.
Their portrays stubs me. They were portraying the embarrasing side of Indonesia in terms of this Cigarette issue.They were concluding that the very low tax and perfect market for cigarettes manufacturer to gain enourmous profit, while in the other hand, bring more Indonesians to their graves earlier.
Tobacco issue is a heartbreaking issue for me. I do realize that many farmers and workers earn their small welfare from it, events gain big-time sponsorship. But in the other hand, more people get sick since for many people--regardless of their financial situation-- smoke regularly either for masculinity, bravery, soothe feelings, relaxing effect. Adding to the fact that more male in their early teen smoke. Plus, the level of role model of Member Of REpresentative board who even smoke in several air-conditioned area or meeting rooms. ANd what hurt me often? It hurts me when I see people smoke almost in any place, they hardly care of what their smoke do to non-smokers. They exhale those poisonous smoke everywhere they smoke, even though there are people who cant inhale it.
Stop Smoking, and tell people not to smoke in public area!
There was one side that they picture a young mother being sick--lung cancer-- for their men in the family smoke. They portrayed the ironi that she got the cancer although she breathed second-hand-smoke(smoke that smokers release). She doesnt smoke, but eventually she died to it. She cant hold her newborn child anymore. And yet their family cant let their hand off their cigarettes, only this time, less than their usual consumption. Even some of the relatives didnt believe that tobacco can cause death, at least sickness. They even tell that being cough a lot is not sick, since for them being sick means you can only rest in your bed doing hardly anything. They were saying it in plain face.
IN the other hand, in the tobacco farmers side, a man has been smoking for 30 years, and he is smoking less since he felt harder to breathe. His wife even says that smoking is OK and it wont give any sickness to them. She even let her teenage child smoke since she things it is not masculine for men who doesnt smoke. She said it in the same plain face of farmers in villages.
They also portrayed about when MUI decided to lay fatwa 'haram' to cigarrettes(which means they ban moslems to smoke), farmers rally to refuse the fatwa. The head rally was a moslem as well, pointing out that they will give their life to stand against that fatwa. They dont care who they are facing, since what matters the most for them is that people can keep smoking so the tobacco farmers dont have to lose their job, or even switch their plantation. Some even caught by camera bringing a figure which implies "Cigarettes are not poison".. Even the reporter said, "For them, welfare is more important than theology".
They even portrayed that the brave ex health minister, Siti Fadilah Supari, cannot say anything after being asked about cigarette issue by saying that she is not ready for such question and leaving the question to her staff in excuse to an occasion she was too late to attend.
Their portrays stubs me. They were portraying the embarrasing side of Indonesia in terms of this Cigarette issue.They were concluding that the very low tax and perfect market for cigarettes manufacturer to gain enourmous profit, while in the other hand, bring more Indonesians to their graves earlier.
Tobacco issue is a heartbreaking issue for me. I do realize that many farmers and workers earn their small welfare from it, events gain big-time sponsorship. But in the other hand, more people get sick since for many people--regardless of their financial situation-- smoke regularly either for masculinity, bravery, soothe feelings, relaxing effect. Adding to the fact that more male in their early teen smoke. Plus, the level of role model of Member Of REpresentative board who even smoke in several air-conditioned area or meeting rooms. ANd what hurt me often? It hurts me when I see people smoke almost in any place, they hardly care of what their smoke do to non-smokers. They exhale those poisonous smoke everywhere they smoke, even though there are people who cant inhale it.
Stop Smoking, and tell people not to smoke in public area!
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